Sometimes I remember. The other times. The pleasant times. The sorrowful times.
Among many life situations and memories there are always some that stay imprinted in your subconscious mind. On one hand there are some memories I like to recall when I feel down, but on the other hand there are many disturbing difficulties that I wish I didn’t have to go through.
Life makes you forget or integrate in yourself events that happened to you which you found very painful.
In my example that was one illness I was diagnosed with when I was only 19 years old and for a long time I just could not accept that it was happening to me. There were so many negative emotions included, so many tears, so many -as I thought back then- missed moments which I was unlike other people of my age, spending in hospital.
When you confront death at such a young age, it pushes you to achieve things that other would never have the strengths to think of. Overcoming serious illness at first breaks your self confidence, but in the end if you survived the deepest depths of it, you can survive anything.
That’s what I remind myself of.
Illness is something most of us will get confronted with at various points of our lives, some will get better, get resilient, others perhaps aren’t going to be that „lucky“.
I have to thank my whole family for supporting me through my dark times because without them my Sun would probably not have emerged.
Through my illness, I lost contact with many friends, quit so many things I would normally do, but I also learned to cherish the people who sticked with me and who supported me.
The funny thing and at the same time the irony of the whole situation is that you have to stay strong when you are feeling the lowest. That, my reader, not many of us could accomplish, but not you my dear….